Who Shall Doubt | ||
consciousness in itself of itself carrying 'the principle of the actual' being actual itself ((but maybe this is a love poem Mary) ) nevertheless neither the power of the self nor the racing car nor the lilly is sweet but this -George Oppen |
Poem of the Day: Who Shall Doubt
01/30/2008 by Cosmographia Books
Hello. 🙂
I find this poem interesting because it forces the reader, or at least me, to seperate the ideas of what it means for something to be beautiful, exciting, inspiriting and just “being”.
I am finding that as I open myself up more and more to the world and the people in it, I become more aware of what is going on in progessively deeper layers. And because I’m starting to really feel out those deeper layers, I feel more connected to things on a natural level. Clarity and general feelings of relief just start washing over me and thru me.
It’s not a forced will sort of thing though. I just try to be in the moment that I’m in, without intelectualizing any real outcome. I find that when I approach each minute of my life like this, I’m able to gain bits of insight as to what is really happening in a situation, including the latent things. I find harmony within myself and my environment, regardless of what’s happening. When I interject things like will, that’s when the dynamic of my scene seems to fade.
Here’s the most recent example from my life:
To get to the center of town, I have to cross a bridge. Under that bridge is, of course, a body of water. This one happens to be a river.
So, I’m crossing this body of water, and I notice the local ducks that like to hang out there by the bridge. Well, I love ducks, so I decided to take a gander at what they were up to. I had no real objective in mind. I just felt a pull to observe them. From the minute I opened myself without reason to that scene, I began to experience wonderful things. I could feel and notice the hard, choppy wind on the cold river sliding over it. The water looked like dragon scales. I could feel the power of that dragon tail river as it flexed it’s feminine curves into the fading distance.
The next layer came about: I saw powerful duck bodies swimming up those scales. I could feel their power coming from their hind sections as I watched them wiggle up that current. Powerful, agile bodies that were as graceful and flexible as a paper sailboat. I could feel the peerless focus from their eyes as they floated up the dragon. They had become guards on duty- guards with a mission.
The 3rd layer: I followed those duck eyes that led up the dragon. I was in that water as one of them feeling ducky. In a rib, upstream, nestled, were other ducks. Ducks relying on ducks. The grey/blue sky and green tree above them sank slowly, slowly into the serpentine river. Paper ducks nestled in a paper sky.
Then, there was no river at all. There was no tree or sky, duck or bridge. The descriptions were gone. Will was gone. Beauty was gone. Excitement was gone. There was just being.
That was Monday, Janurary 7th of 2008. The entire day was like that. It was the truely one of the greatest days I’ve had in over a year.
I’ve been missing you, even when away from the screen.
I bought W.S. Merwin’s The Rain in the Trees. It is mercilessly voluptuous.
Glad you are back!
Paul
Far Company
by W. S. Merwin
At times now from some margin of the day
I can hear birds of another country
not the whole song but a brief phrase of it
out of a music that I may have heard
once in a moment I appear to have
forgotten for the most part that full day
no sight of which I can remember now
though it must have been where my eyes were then
that knew it as the present while I thought
of somewhere else without noticing that
singing when it was there and still went on
whether or not I noticed now it falls
silent when I listen and leaves the day
and flies before it to be heard again
somewhere ahead when I have forgotten