LAST DAY OF National Poetry Month! Day 30
Poem submitted by Carrie Lefler
Float or Sink
Cold and frozen over
The look that was once there
The sparkle in the eyes
The lust for life…gone.
Only momentarily regained
When the right combination of chemistry is found
Ups and downs
Uppers and downers
The limbo in between
Ahhh. That lovely limbo appearing every so often
To give me a bliss that I will shortly miss
That place in between
The grey area
No black, no white
Just grey like the color of my heart
I want it all, but there’s a wall that holds me back
Just like the prison I’m in
The prisons my skin
Sometimes I feel like I’m crawling right out of it
I never quite escape
I numb the discomfort before I even get a chance
To set myself free
Set myself free from the me that’s not me
Cycle…cycle….over and over
I feel like I’m getting closer and closer
To all of the things that scare me the most
I’m a walking, talking, living ghost
Transparent to all who look at me
I’m here, but no one can see what’s wrong with me
I’m standing on the brink
Now I decide…
Do I float or do I sink?
-Carrie Lefler