From Jeanette Winterson at jeanettewinterson.com
January
Honour the fate you are…
That’s from the Auden poem ATLANTIS in our January Poem of the Month. It seems like a good thing to remember, surfing into the New Year, with all its challenges and surprises, difficulties and dreams. I don’t want it to sound like I believe in pre-destination – fate is never that, but it is the web of possibilities from which we unthread our particular journey.
It may be that we don’t honour ourselves enough – in the sense of respecting our real nature – actual and developing. The business of trying to be ourselves is a full-time occupation – which is not to say give up your job and your family, but is to say don’t be troubled by the size of the task. Individuality is not a small thing.
I have said many times that I believe poetry can make a huge difference to how we feel about ourselves and about ourselves in the world. I have just been reading The Letters of Ted Hughes, really engaging stuff, and well worth getting hold of. He says somewhere what I have found for myself, that reading poetry out loud is revelatory. It is in part the incantation, which is ancient and mystical, something we used to do, and rarely do now. It is in part the sound and feel of breath, your breath mingling with the breath of the poet. It is in part recitation, the pleasure of pushing the thing out of your body at the same time as taking it into the body.
I find that if I recite something a few times, I can learn it without really trying – though I know this happens through habit, and won’t happen to someone straightaway. But it will fend off memory loss, and it will give you something to play with in your head the next time you are stuck on a tube-train, or in a queue, or any other situation that requires personal resources, great or small.
In any case, poetry is such an antidote to babble that a dose of it once a day reminds us what language is – and what it isn’t.
Try it for the New Year – a poem every day read out loud. It can be the same poem or different poems, or a sequence of poems, whatever you like. Think of it as a stretch exercise.
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So, to start you off, here is the Auden poem Jeanette chose:
ATLANTIS
Being set on the idea
Of getting to Atlantis
You have discovered of course
Only the Ship of Fools
Is making the voyage this year,
As gales of abnormal force
Are predicted, and that you
Must therefore be ready to
Behave absurdly enough
To pass for one of The Boys,
At least appearing to love
Hard liquor, horseplay and noise.
Should storms, as may well happen,
Drive you to anchor a week
In some old harbour-city
Of Ionia, then speak
With her witty scholars, men
Who have proved there cannot be
Such a place as Atlantis:
Learn their logic, but notice how its subtlety betrays
Their enormous simple grief;
Thus they shall teach you the ways
To doubt that you may believe.
If later, you run aground
Among the headlands of Thrace,
Where with torches all night long
A naked barbaric race
Leaps frenziedly to the sound
Of conch and dissonant gong;
On that stony savage shore
Strip off your clothes and dance, for
Unless you are capable
Of forgetting completely
About Atlantis, you will
Never finish your journey.
Again, should you come to gay
Carthage or Corinth, take part
In their endless gaiety;
And if in some bar a tart,
As she strokes your hair, should say
‘This is Atlantis, dearie,’
Listen with attentiveness
To her life-story: unless
You become acquainted now
With each refuge that tries to
Counterfeit Atlantis, how
Will you recognise the true?
Assuming you beach at last
Near Atlantis, and begin
That terrible trek inland
Through squalid woods and frozen
Tundras where all are soon lost;
If, forsaken then, you stand,
Dismissal everywhere,
Stone and snow, silence and air,
O remember the great dead
And honour the fate you are,
Travelling and tormented,
Dialectic and bizarre.
Stagger onwards rejoicing;
And even then if, perhaps
Having actually got
To the last col, you collapse
With all Atlantis shining
Below you yet you cannot
Descend, you should still be proud
Just to peep at Atlantis,
In a poetic vision:
Give thanks and lie down in peace,
Having seen your salvation.
All the little household gods
Have started crying, but say
Goodbye now, and put out to sea.
Farewell, my dear, farewell: may
Hermes, master of the roads
And the four dwarf Kabiri,
Protect and serve you always;
And may the Ancient of Days
Provide for all you must do
His invisible guidance,
Lifting up, dear, upon you
The light of His countenance.
Great stuff, Nina! I ended up reading this poem aloud. I really felt like I was right there in the middle of the entire journey. For myself, I have decided that 2008 is going to be a “Yes” year for me. So long have I said “no” to myself and have let others say “no” to me. It got to a point where I believed that “no” was the only answer.
But, it isn’t the only answer. In fact it is the wrong answer. “no” is easy to speak, easy to spell and easy to do. I feel that I have come far, very far in the past year. I realised that I got myself into a few really bad situations because I let myself talk myself into saying “no”.
What a strange word, “no”. I have found that when I say “no”, and it is understood by all partites involved (thought not necessarily accepted), the only way out of it all is thru another “no”. Confusion is created. Then both sides end up feeling like they got cheated somehow.
But, when I say “Yes”, I empower myself. The other side may still say “no”, but to keep saying “Yes” to keep going on always places me just one step ahead of my neighsayers. I try not to worry too much about mistakes because that’s what they are, mistakes. I can learn from them. I consider myself to be a capable and intelegent person. When I say “no”, I degrade all of that about myself.
Yes, to expanding my capabilities. Yes, to great food. Yes to my favorite alcohol and my favorite drug. Yes to living. Persephone had it right. It’s only been 8 days into the year, but I am in the best spirits I’ve ever been in 29 years of my life. It’s because I say “Yes” every single day all day long. I don’t give in. If people don’t want to follow suit, screw them. I’m not a bad or malicious person. But, make no mistake, get in my way, and I’m going to trample you down with my Nightmare Horse. (My chinese sign says I’m a horse too…)
I’m really not sure if any of what I just said is actually relavent at all to what you posted, but in my mind it is. And in my body I can feel that each time I go toward that “no”, I spin around, a fuse clicks on and I’m turned back on.
Again, great posting. Winterson rocks!